Tea's Journal

Tea!! lol it feels likes this is a good bye for both of us

But it's just a cya later

I wish u the best on ur journey of life and weightloss!

U have been a true inspiration and pleasure to talk to and have been an amazing support to so many of us! For all of that THANK YOU!

Good Luck!

u bet Phil, cya around!

Tea, I hope you check back in occasionally
I hope you are able to overcome the bingeing and reach your goals, it's been really great being on this journey together and I wish you the best.

HEY GUYS!
alright so im back.
I'm now in an ideal living situation so this diet is more than doable for me. Im living on my own in a new city for the next 12 weeks without the pressures of family and friends to direct my eating. Everything is completely decided by me and i can keep my place empty of anything if i wanted to just to make this diet doable.

so to be fair- what happened...
1- last time i was on this diet i got down to 105 lbs, a weight that i hadnt been in YEARS and i felt super, looked great and i was so happy.
2- this was right before sitting my board exams and so it was kinda keeping me in a slight mental fog and i was having trouble retaining what i was studying each day.
3- took a break so that i could just put my body on hold for a little while so i could finish my work. gained about 5 lbs (110lbs total)
4- took my exam, did well (thank goodness)
5- then started working out since i had the time, gained about 7 lbs in muscle weight, metabolism went thru the roof and i could NOT lose weight cuz i was expending so much energy playing tennis and running and gardening and doing all this stuff that 5 bites was NOT happening. (117 lbs total)
6- decided it was time to just chuck the diet and enjoy being athletic for a while, maintained by weight, got my running stamina back and built alot of strength in my arms with the tennis, but not an OUNCE of weight loss and i was not happy.
7- brings me up to about october where the weather was getting colder and i was in no mood to be working out in the cold.
8- october - december, didnt gain further weight but i felt HORRIBLE, chubby and my skinny clothes that i bought at 105 wasnt fitting right anymore. I was not eating right, from thanksgiving to new years and i was enjoying my first holiday season with my family in 3 years.
9- its january, im working in a different city living on my own and enough is enough!!!! I know that i gained the weight in part cuz i was surrounded by food all the time, in part cuz i was just eating without cause, and in part cuz i was just enjoying the party. haha but it was fun and now its over and done with. The lovely weather is coming up soon and i refuse to feel crappy about myself and feeling like that stupid test messed with me and took control.
10- Im back on a semi-5 bite diet at this point. I eat very little thru the day mostly of fruit and veggies and i stay away from carbs (which just make me tired), and meat (which clog up my system when on a reduced calorie diet). So far i have lost 3 lbs in the first week and im going strong. I want to be down to 100-105 by the time i go home in April and if i dont do it now, things are only going to get more hectic and im going to have a harder time doing this in the future. I need to just do this properly and then put it behind me. I have another board exam to take sometime this year as well and i dont want to be dieting thru that. I want the weight off and then to just eat normal healthy stuff during that time so dont have to worry about the up and down anymore.

I know this forum has cooled down a lot, but i just need some place to write my thoughts and to maintain accountable for what i did and a place to celebrate my successes and to vent out my weaknesses. I think that since the weight gain has been pretty new, it shouldnt take that long to knock off. I dont think that 16 lbs in 12 weeks is too much to ask for at all and im confident that it shouldnt be a problem- this diet gives u such a great feeling of control that u CAN do it. cya around!

You can do it, girl! Other people are always my downfall, so I would LOVE to be able to focus on myself for a few months and get throught it. You are so motivated, I know you'll do it in the time you have. They funny thing is, my goal weight (kinda) is more than your starting, lol. 125. But, I'm 5'7'', so thats my excuse....I know you're into working out, too, so I just wanted to share a new workout. His name is Hamelin D'Abell (sp?) and his workouts are really amazing. He has a few workouts posted on his facebook page- they are 20 min or so, and the results are great. they don't look like much, but they are killer, and quicker than alot of others. His philosophy is like Tracy Anderson, he focuses on small muscle groups for a sleek, non bulky look. Anyway.....welcome back!

oh ill def look into it! i think im going to lay off the cardio this time and just focus on some toning exersizes/yoga kinds of things in the morning before work to get the blood flowing and then just stick to the diet for the rest of the day.

I have since morning gotten rid of all the cheat food in my apartment. I have nothing but oatmeal, lemons, water, a honeydew melon and light and fit yogurt in my place and i am determined to stick to my diet for the next week without fail. Once i have a whole week under my belt i know that things get easier. Just gotta make it to next sunday.

okay so ive been good for 3 days now, and i can only say this:
-i have not weighed in- trying really hard to keep it to once or twice a week
-i am SO hungry, its about 5:00 by me, i just had about 3 carrots for lunch today followed by a coffee
-i must say that i feel like ive lost weight already, i feel smaller and i feel like my clothes are already a wee looser so YAY
-i have thrown out all the food that i could cheat on so despite the fact that if i had a loaf of bread and a wedge of cheese i would have downed that all right now in about 10 seconds, i CANT and im glad for that at least. I'm going to just chug water for the rest of the night.
-i already chopped up an apple to take with me to work for tomorrow so i dont get any fancy ideas that could lead to disaster.

things im craving (im going to include a little section on this every day. I kinda feel like my cravings are largely emotional and maybe if i just write them down I will acknowledge them enough that i'll feel better? lets give it a shot..
- hummus and ritz crackers (im such a hummus whore)
- a thick hunk of french bread smeared with brie... or gouda
MUST STAY STRONG!

toughed out yesterday and im 113.6 this morning!!!! YAYYY!!!!

whoa 112.4 this morning. um, thats almost a lb in a day..
last night i went to bed with a little headache and i woke up with a little light headedness. I think since im sticking to mostly raw fruit and veggies im detoxing a little bit. Had a slight sore throat last night but its gone now. Maybe my skin will become awesome haha. we'll see.

On a few posts back, you mentioned writing down cravings, what a good idea! Garlic hummus on melba toast, bread, and -a strange one- peanut butter and fluff sandwiches are mine. I'll try writing them down when I feel them. Congrats on the weight loss, well done!!

Thanks 3jaysmom! its been rough but im sticking thru it. Its day 4 of CONSISTANT good behavior and about a 8 days on the diet in total and i think ive finally reached the point where my body has learned to stop asking for food cuz its not happening. Yesterday i was really feeling for a kitchen attack, and i took a teaspoon and put a LITTLE ketchup on it and took a lick of that. I felt much better, i think i was just craving flavor. My birthday is next friday so i've already decided that is going to be my cheat day. I have one more week of no cheating and just moving forward, and then next friday I will eat cake! I will eat nothing else BUT that cake on that day cuz i dont want to backpedal on the diet, but i will indulge in some delicious chocolate cake

craving today- my moms BBQ mustard and honey chicken breast stuffed into a pita topped with hummus and red pepper flakes, sprinkle of sea salt with grilled green peppers squished onto the top. ---- uncool.

111.9 wow this weight is DROPPING.

I've been strong for a good 5 days i think? I havent done a stitch of exercise but i have been at work standing all day and i do come home tired so its not like im just sitting around doing nothing all day. i only have 6 more lbs till im down to where i was in AUGUST, i honestly cant believe that.
ive lost 6 lbs in the last 8 days.
im going to be good for one more day, and then on saturday im going to have a "maintain my weight day" i used to do them when i was on this diet last time- i never stayed on this diet for more than 4-5 days at a time without a "cheat" whether it was on purpose or not. Since i have more control over my eating now i dont want to make the mistake of doing myself physical harm from being too disciplined- i think seeing that number on the scale this morning both made me happy and a little worried about how fast the weight is coming off.
My mom is also sending me muffins and cookies in the mail that should be coming today - despite my complaining she cooks really healthy and makes everything as fat free, whole wheat, natural and home baked as possible so i dont feel too horrible about cheating tomorrow cuz i know that those muffins are packed with good nuts and fruit and will probably bring back the nutrition that i have been lacking for the past week. I love my mommy

some things ive noticed- today, i dont feel hungry at all- no grumbling tummy. nothing. For the first 3 days i was going to bed miserable, i went to bed and woke up with a headache 2 days ago, but yesterday was totally fine. Originally my skin had a little breakout but nothing that didnt go away in a day or so. The redness in my skin is gone (i didnt notice that i had it till it was gone, but it was there i guess),

What ive been eating- I've been drinking a cup of coffee with nondairy creamer and stevia in the morning, another 1/2 cup with creamer and sugar in the afternoon, raw carrot sticks for lunch (not 5 bites- proably about a cup worth, but only about 80 calories), then ill come home after work and chug about 1 Liter of water till i go to bed. If im feeling cold or munchy ill either take a lick of ketchup, or a lick of cranberry jam and i'll feel better, or ill make some hot water with a little creamer in it so its a little thicker. Yesterday rather than eat carrots i had about a cup of honey dew melon and i didnt have any "production" like i usually do. It doesnt have the same amt of fiber at all, but im sure it also took near no calories for my body to digest it either. I think eating the carrots are a better idea, but its important to try to vary the diet as much as you can so u can get a variety of nutrition. Today i will make a little tupperware of chopped up carrots and tomorrow i will eat oatmeal and half a muffin to refuel and stick the rest in the freezer so im not tempted to eat it readily.

horray! stay strong nibblers.

okay so little edit-
my little home package came today and rather than wait for tomorrow to come around at about 2:30 this afternoon i had one small homemade muffin and 2 small chocolate chip cookies. That was in addition to the melon that i was munching on earlier... yes it was a cheat. fully admit that, BUT i was SO full after that. like i felt horrible and i was just so sensitive to all the fat that was in there (which probably was only in the cookies) that i didnt even want to eat more. I was so full after that, its 10pm now and i havent eaten anything else. I stuck the rest of the food my mom sent in the freezer so that i wont be tempted to dive into it later on. The amount i ate was NOT a binge at all and im SO PROUD. if you guys remember back when i was on this diet before i was really bad about eating 5 bites and then a cheat day would be like a truck load of a binge that would sometimes mess with my system and get me really sick. I had the same amount in that small little cheat that I would have eaten probably for breakfast on a normal day, so i dont think its going to affect my weight loss much. yeah i wont lose another .5 lbs by the morning, but we'll see, im sure the damage wont be substantial. Im just really happy that my stomach was starting to get a little tight, and i stopped eating. i just stopped and i was no interested in eating more. Before that would have led to a huge stomach aching binge that would have made me miserable.
so i had my little cheat afternoon snack, enjoyed my muffin quietly and slowly without feeling that crazy binge feeling and im happy! I still feel like im on the diet and i dont think tomorrow is going to be set up for failure.

111.4! despite yesterday i still lost .5 lbs! thats certainly a surprise. Im sure the reason is cuz i ate early in the day and drank lots of coffee to make sure it was out of my system by morning (sorry TMI), it had enough time to digest thru before bed.

totally craving cheddar popcorn...

yesterday was great, just coffee and a little honey dew melon for lunch and water for the rest of the day. BUT this morning im at 111.3 which is only 1/10th of a lb down. mm dont know why that is.
im going to go back to eating things that have more fiber in it for lunch- carrots seemed to need more calories to burn thru. will update!

edit- k so today is going alright, im determined to just make it thru the day and tomorrow im sure ill see some kinda weight change. This is usually when i get frustrated and dash the diet, eat a lot and then get myself really sick. Knowing all that, i just had 1 short stubby carrot at around 1pm and another long skinny one at about 1:45. That was preceded by a cup of coffee at around 11am, and followed by tea at 2pm. Im going to just sip on water for the rest of the night and see how the morning works out. Maybe ill have another tea.. but i wont drop off this diet now.

craving- spicey fried chicken breast with biscuits! BAD!

Ya stay strong tea u will drop as long as u stay at it sometimes that gets me to fall of when I don't see a drop but remember that's a lot better than a gain and when I give in a little I end up giving in a lot so stay strong u are doing great weekends are hard but don't give in

Just wanted to stop by and say happy birthday and hopefully it's an awesome one

Happy birthday Tea! Blessings to you! How was the cake? LOL please tell me about your day!